Balbir Matbur: Part of the Symphony
“I plant trees, but I am not the doer of this work. I am the facilitator, the instrument—I am one part of the symphony. I know there is an overall scheme to this symphony that I cannot understand. In some way, we are each playing our own part. It is not for me to judge or criticize the life or work of another. All I know is that this is my dance. I would plant trees today even if I knew for certain that the world would end tomorrow.”
—Balbir Matbur in Heron Dance interview (Issue 11) from Inward Outward, Daily Words, October 19, 2016, inwardoutward.org
For years, our tickets at the Arkansas Symphony Orchestra were in the third row. We felt we were part of the orchestra at times. We knew who sat where, when someone new was there, or when someone was missing. We learned a few by name. Many orchestra members were still there when we first came to Little Rock over forty years ago.
I especially remember one moment many years ago when the first cellist had a twenty-second solo close to the end of the performance. Suddenly, his deep, melodious sound was heard above the rest of the orchestra, and then just as suddenly, he faded back into the background to support the other instruments. If I had been him, I would have been too nervous the whole night, waiting for that brief moment when the soloist’s voice soared above the rest of the orchestra. The professional cellist, of course, seemed as comfortable blending in the symphony as he was with his solo. He also continuously maintained direct eye contact with the conductor as he played his brief solo part. I later wondered about the many hours he must have practiced this short solo until it was almost part of his being.
The cellist taught me that we spend most of our life as a member of the orchestra with our unique instruments and talents, blending and giving depth to the composition assigned to us. Sometimes, we are called to speak out above the symphony’s music. Before we do this, however, we should be prepared by practicing, knowing our part intimately, especially the timing, and keeping our eye on the conductor. Most of the time, we are called to spend our gifts blending, supporting, and in many ways encouraging the sounds of others.